“Brian’s psychological state had deteriorated further into what was unmistakably a mental illness…He had periods of deep depression when he became suicidal. One day he dug a grave in his backyard and fantasized about jumping off the roof into it. On another occasion he threatened to drive his Rolls Royce off the Santa Monica Pier, and once he actually did jump off the pier - but luckily Dennis was nearby and pulled him to safety. He said that killing himself was the best way to kill off The Beach Boys - for by now he hated the idea of the group - it was a monster he had created, and the unrelenting symbol of the demands and pressures weighing on him.” — Heroes and Villains, Steven Gaines
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(Source: serlannister)